You Hold the Power
It was a lay on your face, questioning every career moment type crying session that was held in my hotel room a couple weeks ago. The professional road can be a winding shapeshifter with many fantastic aspects alongside day-to-day challenges mentally and physically. This particular week held one-too-many turnovers with the culprit being myself so that in combination with living isolated in a country far from home guaranteed a heightened response to this particular setback. After 48 hours of sitting in my rut, I mentioned the lowly feelings to a teammate and she suggested I chat to our coach.
What an epiphany that was, to hold such a simple solution that I had not yet considered because of an underlying fear to be told: you’re just not good enough.
Much to my surprise, the conversation opened my eyes back to the undeniable potential held in my hands (or feet, should I say). My coach offered obtainable feedback and tangible solutions, including extra sessions with our technical coach who happens to be a complete bundle of joy. Already, the hope in my capability reignited.
This conversation was followed by said sessions with our technical coach, where he encouraged my soul to re-surface since my self-expression in football has been discouraged for so many years. I transitioned from saying each touch felt good (a performance word) to expressing it as beautiful, nice, and immaculate (expressive words). We both could immediately see and feel the flow of my game improve.
After each mistake I held temptation to berate myself but our technical coach would call me out of my head and back into feeling the rhythm within my body.
With each stone of doubt that I overcome, I find steps towards fully living out my self-worth. We all hold the capability for simple steps towards serenity regardless of solutions in sight or hidden. For me, it took one conversation to lead onto a path towards peace and with each individual session, I am finding more of my footing and confidence.
Each day I continue to grow in appreciation of my badass self and the unharnessed potential ahead of me.
Through kindness, graciousness and gratitude, I invite you to join me.
